Silly As It May Sound

My life was in shambles,
before you came along.
Heartbreak was rampant.
I had no one to talk to,
no one to cry to,
I felt like I was all alone.
Silly as it may sound,
I shut everyone out.

Even after meeting you,
I played you like another game.
I was jaded, can you blame me?
I never took your words seriously,
I never took you seriously.
Silly as it may sound,
I never even took myself seriously.

Ups and downs
chronicle our time together,
Well, mainly downs.
We were young, careless but not free.
We tied ourselves to each other,
obsessed over each other,
We kept quarelling
about the slightest things.
Silly as it may sound,
we didn't know what we had.

Our time apart,
was hell for me.
Everyday was a struggle,
I had to immerse myself in other things.
It was a payback year -
I was mean to you,
you were mean to me.
Silly as it may sound,
I cried myself to sleep.

To be honest,
things started to look up.
The process was excruciatingly slow,
I could not let go.
How could I?
When I had lost what I wanted most?
Yet I struggled forth.
I moved on, supposedly.
Silly as it may sound,
I never did.

We went out,
had a pretty ordinary time.
I knew then I'd rather have my teeth drilled,
than to try to be your 'friend'.
I told you a secret,
you didn't seem to care.
Silly as it may sound,
you didn't seem to care.

You messaged me that very night.
That night I almost didn't reply you.
Can you understand my irritation?
I was finally moving on.
I felt as though you were playing me,
but you weren't.
You confessed,
and slowly, wounds were healed.
Silly as it may sound,
we got back together.

And you know what?
It doesn't sound so silly after all. =)